I’ve gotta be honest here. The last few weeks have been a serious struggle for me. I feel like I put all of my energy into just keeping it together, that I have forgotten a lot of the areas of my life that bring me joy. This probably isn’t the most positive Best Bits, but it is my reality.
I have always been a book worm, and it is one of my favorite ways to relax. Until this weekend it had been FIVE WEEKS since I had read a book. If that doesn’t give you a peek into my stress and anxiety level…. But I took a deep breath this weekend, and forced myself to turn everything off and just be. I woke up this morning feeling fresh and ready to tackle another week for the first time in ages.
I binged Party for Two this weekend in less than 24 hours. I knew if I was going to get back to reading, I needed something familiar, light and that would truly let me escape. Jasmine Guillory is one of my current favorite “chick lit” authors. I have read all of her books, and each one just feels like your favorite cardigan and a big hug.
I’ve been playing around with my curly hair, a never-ending process it feels like, and really feel like I hit a sweet spot. One of my biggest gripes with curly hair is the time it takes to style it, and I often feel like my curls don’t ever “set”. After watching a bunch of videos on IGTV, I decided to give styling in the evening a go.
I did my normal diffuser routine, used all of the same products, but instead of scrunching out the crunch as soon as it was dry, I left it in the cast. I plopped it in a high pineapple, wrapped it in a silk scarf for sleeping, and my curls were POPPING and so defined. Definitely going to keep giving this a go and see if it makes a difference.
I was sent a few products from Benefit, and the Microfilling Pen is brow game changing. It is so easy to use and gives me that perfect, just got my brows threaded effect. It has three little prongs on the end to give multiple brow hairs in a single stroke, which makes it super fast. If you are looking for a great brow product for thin or sparse brows, highly recommend this one!
One of the biggest areas of anxiety for me is returning to school. I have so many thoughts and feelings about what is right and I feel like I am in a massive battle of having to decide between my child’s and my family’s mental and physical well being. This article from the NY Times was really helpful.
Mr G and I went out for dinner of Friday night, the first time we have ventured out in that capacity since March 6th. While it was lovely to have hot food, get dressed up and enjoy a date night together, I couldn’t relax. I was really hoping that it would be this magical experience and that we would want to resume that part of our normal life, but it really just made me realize I’m not ready.
I will say, I wore the most fabulous yellow dress from Eloquii and felt like an absolute goddess.
And that right there has been where I struggle the most. That this life we have been living over the last few months is our normal. The first six weeks of this pandemic were the hardest. It was such a huge adjustment to our lifestyles. To our relationships. To our bodies. But now it has become somewhat normal. And that scares me.
As much as I miss human connection, hugs, people, and my old life, I worry that this is changing who I am. That my introverted side is completely taking over and I won’t know HOW to function again in this big, bustling city. Fully stopping life has really made me drop defenses and walls that I have proudly built up, and it makes me a little fearful of who I will be when things return to normal. If that ever happens.
I am sure that if I am feeling this way, many others are, too.
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